Withdrawal Syndrome

When I read my posts lately, I'm very embarassed cos my blog is full of complaints lately due to my withdrawal syndrome. I don't know it's just a withdrawal syndrome or my attitudes really changed. Recently, there was some problem in my project group where one member was so stressed from workload that she became super emotional and expressing her stress to the whole world. Some of the members said "What a pity! Relax some more" Some said "What the f**k! Everyone has stress! Don't be so drama." What about my response? Well, perhaps some might said I'm evil. I might not sympathize her not because I didn't care about her stress but because I felt those people who want the whole world know how stressful they are aren't really stressful but just want to be seen as if they are. Another reason is because I'm so used to those emotionless Japanese and I adore this kind of culture - not expressing their troubles to others in order not to make people unhappy 'cos of them. You guys might ask me how we can know if they are really happy or unhappy. Well, that's when the high context culture with non-verbal communication practice come in. When I talk to Tsuyoshi or even Kohsuke, I have to ask them indirectly with lots of question to get their true answer when they say "Yes" cos most of the time, it might be (or really is) "No". How extreme my Singaporean and Japanese friends are! One is a super drama-mama, the other one is like an emotionless statue.

Last week, I met Kane and realized that I'm not the only one with this syndrome. She also agreed everything is really unsatisfying to her. Did Japan really change all of us a lot? Well, I don't think some are that crazy like us. Only those Japanese freaks like us and some from JCC became worse. haha... Now 3 of my JCC friends in my batch will be in Japan. In fact, 2 of them are already there. I'm very glad that our common dream since year 1 came true - some doing exchange, some working and some doing master programs. One of them sent me a message and said "COMEEEEEEEE!!! HTIN!!!!!! Japan is where you belong!!!!! COME!!!!!!!!!" When I read it, I couldn't help but agree with her. haha... To borrow Zhang Ziyi's words from the Memoris of a Geisha, every step I'm taking now is to get closer to living in Japan.

Anyway, updates on my current activities: I'm helping JCC Survival Japanese Lesson on every Friday. Those who wanna learn survival Japs for free, come to SOB SR3.9 at 4:00 pm every Friday. This weekends, other exchange students and me are planning to go to Chinese garden (not sure the lanterns are still there) and Jiro ramen shop. Next week, I might wanna join Peace Boat again. I'm still thinking if I should join Japanese KTV organized by my Jap school next week. I haven't really prepared Japanese songs lately and there'll be 20 students. I don't know how many times I can sing if I join. Anyway, I wanna go to any kind of KTV next month cos I have a craving for it now. Anyone wanna join me???

(Oh, no! This post is another same old complain about my life!)