Happy Chinese New Year 2006 & Happy 2nd Anniversary of Living in Singapore!

Happy New Year to my family, friends and everyone!

I hope the year of Dog can bring happiness to Doggies! May Doggies find someone special and loyal to them soon!

Today is my 2nd anniversary of stay in Singapore. How is Singapore? Hmm... It's quite fun living here. These couple of years are the happiest time in my life especially last year. I have more self-confidence and I've tried what I've wanted to do since young such as acting in front of people, singing before so many people, dancing sexy latino dance, etc. Htin Kyaw Lynn of 2 years ago was totally different from Htin Kyaw Lynn in 2006. I understand life, people and everything more. Once a quiet bookworm has become most sociable and outspoken person who cares a lot about belonging to someone or something. I've never loved my school as much as I love SMU. I've never been so patriotic to my country by showcasing my culture and doing good thing for the sake of my country as now. I've never cared about volunteering as much as I do now. Well, life is not all about being the top student in the whole country.

But, is Singapore a bed of roses for me? Well, I do have times feeling so lonely and sad. I do have times thinking of committing suicide. Luckily, I didn't become crazy and depressed. 2 years ago, my parents cried when I left them. I don't know whether they are still crying but I did sometimes cry in these 2 years, especially last year. But for coming to Singapore, would I have faced these problems which made me cry? Or, even if I were still in Myanmar, I could also face such kind of problems so common in this circle. But, one thing for sure is it's not as common in Myanmar as here. Loyalty and responsibilty are also much more higher than promiscuity here. Anyway, I've learnt a good lesson which also reminds me Karma & it results. I'm quite scared of being reflected with the bad things that we've done. If we kill someone, we'll be sooner or later killed either in this life or next life. Sometimes, I'm really shocked to find out that someone finally faced the same thing which I have faced due to that person. Well, in such case I can only say "I'm really sorry that you are also having the same problems that I have had, and I do hope you won't end up feeling sad and depressed like I did before. I do pray the rule of reflection won't apply to you since I know you didn't intentionally hurt me. (In fact, I was not hurt by you. I was hurt by myself since I did bad thing to someone in my previous life and that's why I was hurt in this life.) And, I hope you understand how to sympathize me since now you are really in my shoes and understand how the feeling likes."

Well, it is life! Everyone has ups and downs. But nothing is permanent in this world. We just have to be mindful when we are too happy or too sad. I hope I can cut the tie of attachment to anyone so that I don't have to suffer from the truth of pain and can liberate from this circle of rebirths. Anyways, my new year wish is everybody will be happy, at least me! haha....

*Sorry for non-Theravada Buddhists if you don't understand some Buddhist terms in my blog. It's in the simplest form that I can translate.