Happy Vesak & Mother's Day!

Mood - Tired, Exhausted, Sad
Song - Gary's album: Superwoman
Movie - Poseidon & Jasmine Women

I was really tired this weekend, physically and mentally haha... I had a fucking boring meeting last Saturday from 10 to 5:30. It's quite unproductive meeting for me. As a whole group, we did progress but I was very pissed off cos everyone was arguing for the sake of arguing. I don't know how we passed LTB (leadship & teambuilding) course in year 1. Most of the time, we were arguing for the same thing with different vocabularies and different methods. Sometimes, I find that Singaporeans are very practical but sometimes they can't help beating around the bush. One of my groupmates was trying to say during the meeting that what the other member wrote in the report was totally unrelevant, but she didn't say directly and no one got what she was trying say. Maybe she didn't that person feel insulted. But, at least she could say indirectly or give some hints. In fact, we should be frank and open-minded for the sake of our project. They are not confrontational yet uncompromising. I can't believe how they got into SMU which always claims "We are different". SMU uses American pedagogy but a lot of students are still thinking inside the box. SMU students are so-called "Not just a student, but a young professional" but most of us still cannot stand professional criticism as well as give constructive comments. Anyway, just 5 more days and it'll be over. Jia you! Jia you! Jia you!

After that fucking tired meeting, I became exhausted because of Poseidon. It's a nice movie but my adrenalines were all gone. At the end of the movie, I really felt I was rescued and safe. Although it looks like Titanic, they are totally different. I wasn't that excited to watch Titanic when the ship sank. Poseidon is about those who didn't give up to the Lord of Death try to come out from the sinking ship. Hmm... I should have watched this on Vesak so that I can respect Buddha more. Poseidon is actually similar to one of the Jataka stories "Maha Zanaka" which is about one of the Buddha's previous lives in which Prince Zanaka (would-be Buddha) was a sailor and when his ship sank, he didn't pray gods and spirits like others but he climbed up to the top and jumped into the sea to escape from the sharks which were around the sinking ship, and swam for 7 days & nights until the Goddess of Ocean saved him.





I happened to watch "Jasmine Women" on Sunday which is Mother's Day. I didn't really know about this movie until I reached cinema haha.... The main theme is based on how a woman has to face a sad life because of her wrong decision in love and marriage. Zhang Ziyi plays 3 characters of grandmother (Mo), mother (Li) and daughter (Hua). All of them are kinda cursed to have this repeated sad story due to men. Zhang Ziyi is really really good but the characters are really digusting. Mo met a flim producer and became a famous actress and his mistress. During Sino-Japanese War, she was left in pregnant. She didn't abort the child and led a sad life. She had affairs with her own mother's partner. Her mum then committed suicide. Her daugher's Li was also as rude as Mo to her own mother. Li loved her husband so much that she even suspected her mother of flirting with her husband. Later she got hallucination that her husband had an affair with their adopted daugher (Hua). Because of her accusation her husband committed suicide and Li became insane and left home. Hua was brought up by her grandmother Mo, and like her mother and grandmother her love story was not good. Her husband, a college student, met another girl in school and asked her for divorce. Like her grandmother, she gave birth to her daughter. This scene is really disgusting and sad cos she gave birth by herself under heavy rain on the street at night.

When I watched this, I missed my dad who always said he only wants son because he doesn't want to see his daughters to have a sad life. Thanks God, I'm a guy! Otherwise, I can't think of how painful, helpless and sad I would be if I were like Zhang Ziyi to be left by husband and gave birth her child on the street. Actually all mothers are very pity. The burden of carrying a child in her womb for 9 months and the pain during delivery are really terrible. They risk their life to send us to this world, and it's quite sad if their children are ungrateful. This movie gives a lot of lessons for Buddhists. Insulting parents is the largest sin besides insulting Buddha. Whoever insult their parents will definitely go to the hell. Moreover, they won't have a happy in before the death and even in the lives after sufferring in the hell for million and million of years. The director in this movie may wanna tell us how strong these women are in leading their life even against their mother's will. But for me, the best lesson I learnt is that we'll have to pay even in this life for whatever bad things we did to our parents (coincidentally it's Mother's Day). Mo was super rude to her mother and even had affairs with her stepfather. Unsurprisingly, her own daughter Li was even more rude than her. Insulting her mother by accusing of infidelity with her husband, Li also couldn't escape from her karma. She lost her husband and got insane. Anyway, Jasmine Women aka Molihua kai (Jasmine flower blossom) is a good movie.




Does my blog look like a religious blog? Perhaps, I had sufferred a lot these few days and therefore reminding myself of Buddha's teaching so that I can get over my sorrows. Anyway, today's blog is for Vesak Day and Mother's Day. May my mum be happy and healthy forever under the cool shade of Buddha! Thanks a lot for growing me up. Without you, I wouldn't have been that religious and smart in studies. Your love and strict disciplines attribute to my success. I still remembered you were almost fainted when I made a mistake during my Matriculation Exam. I thought you were too much that time. But, now I understand how much you want me to be successful. I still can see how happy you were when I was on the news that time after the results were out. I'm really sorry for not hardworking now in S'pore. You always scolded me whenever I got one mark less in exam. I can't believe how you'll be if you know my GPA haha... Mom, I'm not as greedy in grade as before. I'm rusted in S'pore! haiz...

This short clip by a group of ABC made me remember my mother. Actually almost all Asian mums are like that.