Cognitive Dissonance

Mood - Upset

Is there any place where I can learn to be decisive? Sometimes I don't know if my major weakness is undecisiveness or procrastination. Last Sunday my Calculus prof emailed me and asked if I wanted to be the Calculus TA under new prof. When I asked the new prof, she immediately replied me email and asked me decision. But I took one whole day to consider the job and when I applied it, somebody took the job already. This was not my first time. TA position in Japanese was also taken by someone else.

People are very strange. They always feel regret for doing / not doing something they should / shouldn't have done. I'm also one of them. Now I hate myself for not putting Rikkyo as my first choice. I asked OIR today if I could change from APU to Rikkyo. But unfortunately, 2 places in Rikkyo were already taken. I should have got it if I put Rikkyo as my first choice. But, I was afraid I would regret if I applied Rikkyo. Now is the reverse. haiz!

Anyway, in the end I'm still going to Japan no matter where the uni is!